The Start of the new stage of my life has taken affect. I'm going to be looking for answers to questions I do not know of yet. I have the usual ones picked out already. The 'who am I', 'why am I here' and a whole life evaluation, which I haven't thought through yet.
I am in need of quiet time for reflecting on things. Time where I do not get disturbed, distracted, interupted, stressed or intruded upon. What I need to reflect upon is where I feel I am going to stumble down a bit. Do I need to write down my query on a piece of paper and let God dish out my answer when he so chooses? Or do I just keep thinking of the question hoping for the penny to drop?
My whole life evaluation seems to be upsetting me in some places. Do I want to be in this relationship now? Do I really feel 100% confident in what I'm doing? There are some things which I feel if even question them, the will cave in and I'll stop doing it. These are things I deem necessary to my existance, like my education. Do I continue in my sport because some of the individuals are (subconciously) against what I believe the sport to be about? Diligence, integrity and self control, some of these qualities are abscent in members of the club I go to. And it is having it's affect on me...
I was told not to search for the answer. I was advised to let the answer come to me. This shit isn't easy, I tell you that much. With that bit of advice I will just have to go along in life without thinking of my questions and then realise the answer long after it happened. Or I may even be thinking of the question whilst I see the answer in front of me. Or I may see the answer then see that it is what it is I have been looking for. I was told about the cave I need to go into. It is the cave of my innner self, the darkness, the blackness of the un-explored self, the area of me I do not know very well. I have a fear of the unknown. But it will have to become my new home within myself.
All I can hope is that what that darkened section of myself brings me positive results and realizations. but I will not get the answer when I search for it. I just have to sit in that dark cave of the new Master and wait, wait, wait.....
Sunday 20 December 2009
Saturday 28 November 2009
Eh, filling in the blanks
Dearest partner of Greatness,
A life changing workshop is happening for me soon. Life changing in the way that I'll be more connected with the universe, if you believe in such a thing. This may bring greater awareness of things which most people would look over. Emotions may be much more prominent. Intuition development. A bit of Clarvoyency and Claraudiency in the mix too. Increased integrity with a balance of wisdom. And sensitiviy to situations and other's emotions.
This all spawns, from what I know, when becoming a Reiki Master. Reiki opens up the spiritual senses; clarvoyency and claraudiency. This connection is to receive messages from spiritual gardians. Awareness not a lot of people may have.
The most entriguing thign about Reiki Masters is the new traits which one may get from them. The main one is integrity. The problem then with people who know a Reiki Master both before and then after they become a Master is this newfound integrity. I'm just thinking about how Integrity could affect one's relationship with a Reiki Master. It could happen that the Master won't do certain things or refuse to entertain some ideas which you may hold. Or may refuse more sternly than before. If something done is wrong, then the integrity would show it to the Master more easily. And they may not sit on the fence or keep quiet for much longer.
That is what could happen inside the person's mental level. I presume the Workshop will teach the Mster how to balance and protect themself from these external negative happenings. It is for the better for both the Master and the people in constant contact with them. Without the ability to balance, ground, centre and protect things will cave in upon the person. Negative feelings may take hold. But part of being a Reiki Master is to be able to feel and deal with emotions, the realization and acceptance of various emotions and the fact they must be felt. If they are not felt they build up into a little monster. This happens to everyone, they bottle up an emotional event and it eats at them day by day. It can lead to depression or physical manifesations such as ulcers, muscular tensions or migrains.
The difference between a Reiki master and another person who does not feel some emotions which must be felt is their acceptance of the need to feel an emotion when it needs to be felt. It is the Master's job to feel these and not harm anyone else be hurt by it. They may be having an angry day and have an out burst at someone and from that point on, their relationship could decline.
There are other aspects too. The Reiki Master will seek out simialr people, loved-based rather than fear based people. What's the point in being surrounded by fear and hate? People with acceptance for unearthly ideas is an attractive option. None of these are necessities, but a help.
These changes will occur to me, but to what extent I do not know. These are not negative developments for me. But it may make times awkward amongst friends and loved one. That is awkward when they know the Reiki person before and then after. I will understand completely, wholly and lovingly if the parties involved decide to step down if they feel the change is too much, or not why they are here in the first place. it will be met with love rather than hate and disgust...
A life changing workshop is happening for me soon. Life changing in the way that I'll be more connected with the universe, if you believe in such a thing. This may bring greater awareness of things which most people would look over. Emotions may be much more prominent. Intuition development. A bit of Clarvoyency and Claraudiency in the mix too. Increased integrity with a balance of wisdom. And sensitiviy to situations and other's emotions.
This all spawns, from what I know, when becoming a Reiki Master. Reiki opens up the spiritual senses; clarvoyency and claraudiency. This connection is to receive messages from spiritual gardians. Awareness not a lot of people may have.
The most entriguing thign about Reiki Masters is the new traits which one may get from them. The main one is integrity. The problem then with people who know a Reiki Master both before and then after they become a Master is this newfound integrity. I'm just thinking about how Integrity could affect one's relationship with a Reiki Master. It could happen that the Master won't do certain things or refuse to entertain some ideas which you may hold. Or may refuse more sternly than before. If something done is wrong, then the integrity would show it to the Master more easily. And they may not sit on the fence or keep quiet for much longer.
That is what could happen inside the person's mental level. I presume the Workshop will teach the Mster how to balance and protect themself from these external negative happenings. It is for the better for both the Master and the people in constant contact with them. Without the ability to balance, ground, centre and protect things will cave in upon the person. Negative feelings may take hold. But part of being a Reiki Master is to be able to feel and deal with emotions, the realization and acceptance of various emotions and the fact they must be felt. If they are not felt they build up into a little monster. This happens to everyone, they bottle up an emotional event and it eats at them day by day. It can lead to depression or physical manifesations such as ulcers, muscular tensions or migrains.
The difference between a Reiki master and another person who does not feel some emotions which must be felt is their acceptance of the need to feel an emotion when it needs to be felt. It is the Master's job to feel these and not harm anyone else be hurt by it. They may be having an angry day and have an out burst at someone and from that point on, their relationship could decline.
There are other aspects too. The Reiki Master will seek out simialr people, loved-based rather than fear based people. What's the point in being surrounded by fear and hate? People with acceptance for unearthly ideas is an attractive option. None of these are necessities, but a help.
These changes will occur to me, but to what extent I do not know. These are not negative developments for me. But it may make times awkward amongst friends and loved one. That is awkward when they know the Reiki person before and then after. I will understand completely, wholly and lovingly if the parties involved decide to step down if they feel the change is too much, or not why they are here in the first place. it will be met with love rather than hate and disgust...
Wednesday 11 November 2009
Eh, being bored and random...
1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
Nutrition
2. Who are you in love with?Ciara
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?not to my memory
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?Yup. A piece of white string on my bag
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?Monday
6. Are you wearing socks right now?Yes I am.
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?Don't have a licence
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?Refer to last question
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?Yes, Jennifer's Body
10. Are you hot?Some think so.......
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?Water
12. What are you wearing right now?Massage t-shirt, blue fat-man pants
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?Refer to Question 7
14. Last food that you ate?A wrap with random meat and salad
15. Where were you last week at this time?college probably doing the same thing as this time last week
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?No
17. When is the last time you ran?A while ago to get outta the rain
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?A small section of a soccer match last night
19. What is your favorite animal?Maroon Clown fish
20. Your dream vacation?Kerry
21. Last person's house you were in?Mine.
22. Worst injury you've ever had?Arthritis
23. Have you been in love?refer to Question 2
24. Do you miss anyone right now?refer to Question 2
25. Last play you saw?Hamlet in CAT
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?Words
27. What are your plans for tonight?Cinema, if anyone will go with me
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?Don't have Myspace
29. Next trip you are going to take?To ITL
30. Ever go to camp?Every year
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?If the question is what I think it means, yes
32. What do you want to know about the future?I'm having potatoe for dinner
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?eh, no
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?no
35. Where is your best friend?on planet Earth
36. How is your best friend?Aive
37. Do you have a tan?builder's tan
38. What are you listening to right now?The hummmmmm of computers and people whispering
39. Do you collect anything?experience
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?no names being mentioned
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?never
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?Sure have
43. What does your last text message say?I left my phone at home!!!
44. Do you like hot sauce?Depends on what sauce it is
45. Last time you took a shower?Last night after training
46. Do you need to do laundry?nope. I'm enough clothes to keep me going
47. What is your heritage?Irish
48. Are you someone's best friend?Sure damn hope so
49. Are you rich?Like evry other student
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?Going to bed
Sunday 8 November 2009
Eh, happy fucking Christmas.....
How is it that on the 7th of November, while walking in the shopping centre I saw a load of Christmas banners? Dunnes, this afternoon, I see one poor creatúr employee with a ladder. He had a big black trolley with a huge something covered in silver tinsel and big red shiney balls. The poor child...
This occurance has been happening more and more over the past number of years. Why? I do not know. Do people want to be happier for longer and the only time of year they are happy is Christmas? Is it that Summer isn't good enough for them? Are they not leading a fulfilling life, or following a healthy lifestyle which would bring them happiness upon them most of the year around? These are the things which go through my mind when I see the vechiles of happiness and joy.
Christmas isn't the happiest of times for everyone. There are people who are not able to see their family over the 'season of joy'. And because of this they would rather go to work and get paid than have a day off which they would be doing nothing with, but sulking or being alone while all their friends go home to their family. They cannot go visiting friends because they do not want to be rude by crashing in on another person's family gathering. And these people are living away from home and may not afford to go home to their family
Nothing good lasts forever. So that is possibly why people want good to last that bit longer. But the novelty wears itself thin by Mid-December. It is horrible. It really is. And that Shit song is on repeat with only thirty seconds of music playing on and on and on........
This occurance has been happening more and more over the past number of years. Why? I do not know. Do people want to be happier for longer and the only time of year they are happy is Christmas? Is it that Summer isn't good enough for them? Are they not leading a fulfilling life, or following a healthy lifestyle which would bring them happiness upon them most of the year around? These are the things which go through my mind when I see the vechiles of happiness and joy.
Christmas isn't the happiest of times for everyone. There are people who are not able to see their family over the 'season of joy'. And because of this they would rather go to work and get paid than have a day off which they would be doing nothing with, but sulking or being alone while all their friends go home to their family. They cannot go visiting friends because they do not want to be rude by crashing in on another person's family gathering. And these people are living away from home and may not afford to go home to their family
Nothing good lasts forever. So that is possibly why people want good to last that bit longer. But the novelty wears itself thin by Mid-December. It is horrible. It really is. And that Shit song is on repeat with only thirty seconds of music playing on and on and on........
Sunday 1 November 2009
Tuesday 27 October 2009
Eh, about the film not too many people understood...
Warning, if you have not seen The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus this post is about clearing up what I was asked about. These are my interpretations not fact. Either it'll clear up what will confuse you and/or ruin teh movie for you...
The full title in all it's glory;
THE IMAGINARIUM OF DOCTOR PARNASSUS
The full title in all it's glory;
THE IMAGINARIUM OF DOCTOR PARNASSUS
Right. We were like ten minutes late for the movie. That little fact still didn't stop me from following it to the best of my ability. And from my being late I may have missed soemthing at teh very start. What the other people who saw the movie wondered was;
What was the beliefs of Doctor Parnassus and what was the importance of them?
What is the story with the mirror thing they went into?
Why Heath Ledger's character changed so often?
The Doctor's beliefs were that to keep the world going a story must always be being told. Hence why the Devil came along with the thing to suck the mouths off the disciples. He thought that the only reason why the world was still going was because that small group was telling stories. It became apparent to the doctor, after the monks getting silenced, that the storytelling wasn't solely being done by them. The stories were bein told by people all over the world.
The mirror that the women jumped into is where their souls were taken. Or this is what I think it is about. It is needed to fulfil the deal with the Devil. The deal was to cancel out another deal made. The Devil and the Doctor had to get 5 souls before the other and before the Doctor's daughter's 16th birthday. The mirror was the method which the Doctor used to trap the souls.
When the women went into the mirror, they were visiting their imagination or where their fantasies dwells. Each imagination is different from the other person and the various imaginations are represented. The reason for Ledger's character changing to Johnny Depp, Jude Law and Collin Farrell is that each of the women fantasized about their dream man and that is the reason for the cast change. Not because of the fact that Heath Ledger died, but due to the diference between reality and fantasy...
I have addressed the main questions. I decided not to go at other questions to not ruin the movie too much for ye who have not seen it...
One more which seemed to cause confusion. The ending. The Doctor did the last deal to get his daughter back but The Devil lost the Doctor's daughter and couldn't give her back because he didn't have her soul. So the Doctor was left in search for her in solditude of his own mental dessert. And by finding her in the Urban setting made him happy because he then knew she was happy...
And clearer?
Thursday 22 October 2009
Eh, surprises....
What's lovely is when you can still surprise someone even after being with them for so long. If is it a year, or nineteen. Sometimes the look of delight and awe gives such a nice warm deep feeling!!!
For example; coming home a bit earlier in the week and cooking dinner when we get home. The for the idea to crop up that I should invite the other half along too. Which was fine with me.
So you get in contact with herself. Tell her you have a dinner organised for her, but not say that you are doing it. She'll think you are messing because you are in college 66 miles away and not due home until the next day! But this all adds to the moment.
An unforeseen change of plans can sometimes be exactly what one needs to relax and forget about the stresses of life and leaving cert. Have a bash off it.
A nice deed is beneficial and nice; http://lifeaftertheleaving.blogspot.com/2009/09/eh-being-nice-is-genuinely-nice.html for a previous post on this topic...
For example; coming home a bit earlier in the week and cooking dinner when we get home. The for the idea to crop up that I should invite the other half along too. Which was fine with me.
So you get in contact with herself. Tell her you have a dinner organised for her, but not say that you are doing it. She'll think you are messing because you are in college 66 miles away and not due home until the next day! But this all adds to the moment.
An unforeseen change of plans can sometimes be exactly what one needs to relax and forget about the stresses of life and leaving cert. Have a bash off it.
A nice deed is beneficial and nice; http://lifeaftertheleaving.blogspot.com/2009/09/eh-being-nice-is-genuinely-nice.html for a previous post on this topic...
Friday 16 October 2009
Eh, demoracy rules
Getting responsibility from peers is a lovely feeling. It shows that they have confidence on you to represent them. And my class chose someone who is a little quiet, but a listener at the same time. Or that's what I think they think of me. Except for one person who decided to say, before they voted the Class Rep, that we shouldn't vote someone who would stand in the corner behind the door and say nothing. Shows what he knows.
A good class rep has the capability to listen, take on board what has been said to them and relay the concerns to the Staff and heads of department. A Class Rep is also the line of communication between the Staff and Students. That link is there to make little changes to teh learning environment. Be it, a timetable on the doors of the computer labs or posting CA deadlines on the notice board. Small things which help everyone in a little way to make life easier.
In the Meetings time is given to each person, reasons and answers are given to the queries, discussion and improvements are written down with intention to correct them where possible. I now see the benefit of the Class Rep System. I dunno if it worked as well in the secondary school system, but it sounds like it works in Third Level...
A good class rep has the capability to listen, take on board what has been said to them and relay the concerns to the Staff and heads of department. A Class Rep is also the line of communication between the Staff and Students. That link is there to make little changes to teh learning environment. Be it, a timetable on the doors of the computer labs or posting CA deadlines on the notice board. Small things which help everyone in a little way to make life easier.
In the Meetings time is given to each person, reasons and answers are given to the queries, discussion and improvements are written down with intention to correct them where possible. I now see the benefit of the Class Rep System. I dunno if it worked as well in the secondary school system, but it sounds like it works in Third Level...
Sunday 4 October 2009
Eh, decisions
Where I'm going to College has a fair few clubs and societies, not as many as UCC (160ish to my last recollection). But still there is a bit for everyone. And for the people who have the more unique hobbies it may be harder to get out there and get to know the people with the same unique hobby. For example, there's actually a massage society in the place I go to... So anything is possible...
My problem is that of the society's abscence to which I would join. So I now have to go and try setting it up. I was going to set one of two up. Frisbee and Improv. A friend asked me, 'Which wold be more beneficial Cian?' I didn't have to answer her. I knew which was the answer and am now going about to setting it up. Just need to know how to set it up. THere's something about a chairperson, secretary and treasurer. And meetings and everything.
This all sounds complicated and eveything, but I'm sure I'll get it up and going and hopefully get a show or two going by the end of the year.... Fingers crossed...
My problem is that of the society's abscence to which I would join. So I now have to go and try setting it up. I was going to set one of two up. Frisbee and Improv. A friend asked me, 'Which wold be more beneficial Cian?' I didn't have to answer her. I knew which was the answer and am now going about to setting it up. Just need to know how to set it up. THere's something about a chairperson, secretary and treasurer. And meetings and everything.
This all sounds complicated and eveything, but I'm sure I'll get it up and going and hopefully get a show or two going by the end of the year.... Fingers crossed...
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